Just A "Pause"!!

It was around 10 in the morning.. I was returning home from my tuition classes! A normal day, same road and just a distance of 10 minutes which I usually surpass by humming any song that comes to mind…

Today was nothing different… at the beginning!

I took a rickshaw and was on my way.. suddenly, near a crossing I saw a tiny crowd! As a matter of fact, all my attention was turned there.. I don’t know exactly what happened but ofcourse I could guess the most of it.. there was a rickshaw which was mostly stopped by the police..and a girl was sitting there! The rickshawpuller was an aged fellow.. he seemed really weak and needy! But, what was more terrible was that I saw the young girl shouting at him infront of all those people and even using slangs.. I did not look at the girl.. instead, I saw the face of the man.. weak,terrible,sad,helpless or may be I imagined too much.. or may I don’t have words to describe what I saw and what I felt!.. A Pain!!

He was silently listening to everything that girl said but did not reply..

It was just a “small” moment for me..few seconds may be but the intensity of my “mixed feeling” was a bit too much.. wish I could pause for a moment,stay back to the place, listen to the whole thing and atleast do something..but I couldnot..or may be I DID NOT!!

It was may be among those hundreds of incidents that happen everyday, every minute..

But sometimes, few incidents leave marks and may be help us learn few things.. we call them “Realisation”.. I realised the pain..when I “viewed” it, I felt pity..

But, would it have been the same if I was the do-er?? Yea, sometimes we do feel bad and even regret for our deeds..but is that the same always?? We don’t really pause and think about those “small” happenings..

I may not have felt so bad if I was not a viewer in this regard..we see, we feel, we understand..but do we always apply??

Next time, what if I do the same with someone like the poor guy?? Would I realise “this” pain, “then”??

We talk a lot but do very less..we see a lot but care less..we realise a lot but forget very fast!!

P.S.- I still wish, I had paused there for sometime…

Run A"Way"!!

No! It wont work..

Running away never works..

We try to run and hide

From fear,pain,death-'LIFE'

And it never works really..

Yes, I tried, tried to run away from you

not because I can stay without 'you'

but because, it's hard 'to be near and yet so far'

I know you know it,then why do you pull me back??

why?? to 'push' me again??

I wish I could read your mind and heart

cause I get a feeling,there is something you are hiding!

what is it?? 'love', 'pain','tears'?? what can it be??

I fail,fail to understand! myself and you..

and yet again try to run away from 'you'..

Though I know,'you' will pull me back

yet, I try...

But...what if you don't?? will I be able to walk away??

The thought of 'being away' from you scares me so much,

then why do I even try to run away??

Just to get pulled by you??

Staying back seems easier,when you pull back

but 'running away'..can i 'ever' do that??

Baby, I call it 'not' love..rather 'life'

where you cannot just run away..

And where the 'pull back' sometimes let you 'breathe'

and then you find 'no other way'..

Then why do we even try??

even when we know life is not just "happiness"

It's about both, smile and cry..

we run away from what hurts..

then, what about the "smile" we get after the scars??

No,we cannot...

Cannot run away from life..

cause, there's always that "pull back"

No matter how far we run and strive..