We are Nothing without "Them" :)

She was goin through the album of her school days.. The old pics took her to a ride of those “good-old-days” with her “Buddies”

Nidhi is a happy-go-lucky girl by nature who never got tired of talking and loved to make friends..her friends loved her, pampered her and she was the “kiddo” of the group..

But unfortunately, every good thing comes to an end!

It was time for her to leave the best-school days of her life and enter into a new road and begin a new journey..

She flipped through the pictures and travelled down to the memory lane where she could hear the laughters with her friends, she could she the tears rolling down after fights..

The good old days came as a flashback to her all of a sudden and she started living them once again.. the vague memories turned crystal clear! Her friends, best-buddies and all those “out-of-this-world” happy days were right infront of her..

There was a group pic-all the crazy bunch of people,her friends in a single frame on the last day of their school life..the pain was not invisible though there was that mask of extreme happiness or enjoyment..

Her eyes turned moisten and she went back to that day, where promises were made and friendship was relieved…

“now get up guys, bohot nautanki ho gayi..you girls na!! screamed Ali,seeing the girls bursting into tears.. It was their last day after all! The “Group” was about to fall apart..they believed that nothing could even touch their friendship but it was the distance that mattered to them..everyone had different dreams and destinations!

Okay enough of it now..we are not dying yaar,just moving to different places and won’t we meet every year during vacations?? Ofcourse!! Then? Just relax.. an over senti- Tiya uttered the words,controlling her emotions which was really hard for her! She was Nidhi’s best friend and from the time they were in school,they were inseparable….

For the first time,they were going away from each other and now they had to share secrets through STD calls..yes! that was the first thought crossed their minds!!!

Keeping their “mixed” feelings aside, everybody got into the groove once again, just to live their last moments together.. Nidhi,the most energetic and crazy girl, was low,unexpectedly! She was sad after all…really sad! But nothing stopped her from dancing her heart out.. it was the best she could do..

They had their best night but was again, another best thing came to an end! It was the end of “their” night..

Rishab left the dance floor and came to sit near the pool..he looked back and saw his friends enjoying..he gave a wry smile and realised he was going to miss them like hell!

Kruti came and sat by his side, she caught his thoughts and hugged him tight..

I will miss you,said she,unable to control her tears anymore.. Rishab couldnot utter a word and just hugged her back.. The music slowed down, the dance floor emptied and each one of them were sitting by the pool side.. A weired silence which contained lots of words in it.. atlast Nidhi decided to break the silence..

She started speaking, We may be moving to different places, meet new people, make new friends, live our dreams, stay away from each other and the calls may turn to STD now, may not meet almost everyday,not even the weekends..we are still going to be the same! The same crazy bunch of people, the inseparables, the “Buddies”.. what else do we need?

This is not our last night together..this is just an end to an everyday-craziness, after all even we need a break guys.. isnot it??

Tears rolled down from their eyes and Nidhi was no exception..

She continued, at the end of this of this beautiful night with my group I want u all to promise few things to each other..and these promises are NOT meant to be broken ever..

A tinge of smile glued to their lips and like always they stood in a circle, intact, and promised never to forget each other, never to break the “circle”, remember everyone’s birthday,meet during every vacation,call whenever they could and the most important one-To carry the group picture wherever they would go…

The last group hug they had and “it” came to an end.. unfortunately!”

Nidhi could her tear drops on the picture..sshe rubbed them and looked at each of them once again.. she missed Tiya the most. Even when they talk almost once a week(yes, now it was not everyday) she miss her “old” bestie.. she missed Ali, the dude of the gang and the sweetest guy she ever met..she missed Raghav,kruti, Akansha,Karan and everyone of them…she missed “those” days… the “not-meant-to-be-broken” promises were broken a lot of times and since many years, the birthday wishes were forgotten! She really missed her Friends..

After wiping her tears, she closed the album with a smile and a satisfaction! Suddenly her eyes struck the watch and it was 1 min.to 12.00 which meant it was her birthday after just 1 min.

She heard her phone ringing and it was an unknown number.. first,she thought to ignore but then, ignore a call on your b’day was not a good idea..

She picked up the call.. “Happy b’day to you, happy b’day to you.. happy b’day to our kiddo..happy b’day to you”.. a chorus song was all she could hear and it did not take her any time to recall the voices..yes, it was them! Her “buddies”..this time they did not forget their Promise.. And this was the best thing for Nidhi, the best she could wish on her Birthday…

We go away from our friends, loose contacts, donot even meet..

But we never FORGET them..we live our “Best Days” with them after all..

Just A "Pause"!!

It was around 10 in the morning.. I was returning home from my tuition classes! A normal day, same road and just a distance of 10 minutes which I usually surpass by humming any song that comes to mind…

Today was nothing different… at the beginning!

I took a rickshaw and was on my way.. suddenly, near a crossing I saw a tiny crowd! As a matter of fact, all my attention was turned there.. I don’t know exactly what happened but ofcourse I could guess the most of it.. there was a rickshaw which was mostly stopped by the police..and a girl was sitting there! The rickshawpuller was an aged fellow.. he seemed really weak and needy! But, what was more terrible was that I saw the young girl shouting at him infront of all those people and even using slangs.. I did not look at the girl.. instead, I saw the face of the man.. weak,terrible,sad,helpless or may be I imagined too much.. or may I don’t have words to describe what I saw and what I felt!.. A Pain!!

He was silently listening to everything that girl said but did not reply..

It was just a “small” moment for me..few seconds may be but the intensity of my “mixed feeling” was a bit too much.. wish I could pause for a moment,stay back to the place, listen to the whole thing and atleast do something..but I couldnot..or may be I DID NOT!!

It was may be among those hundreds of incidents that happen everyday, every minute..

But sometimes, few incidents leave marks and may be help us learn few things.. we call them “Realisation”.. I realised the pain..when I “viewed” it, I felt pity..

But, would it have been the same if I was the do-er?? Yea, sometimes we do feel bad and even regret for our deeds..but is that the same always?? We don’t really pause and think about those “small” happenings..

I may not have felt so bad if I was not a viewer in this regard..we see, we feel, we understand..but do we always apply??

Next time, what if I do the same with someone like the poor guy?? Would I realise “this” pain, “then”??

We talk a lot but do very less..we see a lot but care less..we realise a lot but forget very fast!!

P.S.- I still wish, I had paused there for sometime…

Run A"Way"!!

No! It wont work..

Running away never works..

We try to run and hide

From fear,pain,death-'LIFE'

And it never works really..

Yes, I tried, tried to run away from you

not because I can stay without 'you'

but because, it's hard 'to be near and yet so far'

I know you know it,then why do you pull me back??

why?? to 'push' me again??

I wish I could read your mind and heart

cause I get a feeling,there is something you are hiding!

what is it?? 'love', 'pain','tears'?? what can it be??

I fail,fail to understand! myself and you..

and yet again try to run away from 'you'..

Though I know,'you' will pull me back

yet, I try...

But...what if you don't?? will I be able to walk away??

The thought of 'being away' from you scares me so much,

then why do I even try to run away??

Just to get pulled by you??

Staying back seems easier,when you pull back

but 'running away'..can i 'ever' do that??

Baby, I call it 'not' love..rather 'life'

where you cannot just run away..

And where the 'pull back' sometimes let you 'breathe'

and then you find 'no other way'..

Then why do we even try??

even when we know life is not just "happiness"

It's about both, smile and cry..

we run away from what hurts..

then, what about the "smile" we get after the scars??

No,we cannot...

Cannot run away from life..

cause, there's always that "pull back"

No matter how far we run and strive..

Any Strings Attached???

The wind was soothing and comforting..I was lost in my own thoughts! Sitting in the back seat of the car, alone and with a soft track in my play list, I was enjoying the breeze and my own world of a certain happiness.. unaware about the busy roads and people, I kept on looking at the cloudy sky and also the stars fighting to retain their position..
I was waiting for mom and dad to come back from whatever work they went for! But my thoughts did not let me bore..
After a while, the wait became too much for me to bear..yet no way to escape!
With nothing much left to do, I finally decided to take a look around myself, at all those busy faces..
Bored with the boring people around, I saw my parents coming and got some relief..

Suddenly I thought of taking a look around once again and I looked back.. a bike stopped near the car and a guy in a black suit got down from it.. the guy was handsome! .. I looked away as an usual habit.. But something was different! I felt an urge to look back.. and to my utter revelation, I saw him looking at me as well.. though, it was nothing to be shocked, yet I was shocked..

He looked amazing in his suit.. his eyes had a charm

Eye contact with an unknown guy was not a big deal.. but Eye-contact with an “Unknown” guy and a known Feeling was disquieting..

He looked into my eyes and caught hold of  me,through them.. I  ogled at him as if I knew him.. we shared an instant connection.. everytime we see a movie or a daily soap, we find a sudden wind blowing and music playing around whenever there is an eye contact between the leads or any “love” scene.. It always seemed funny to me.. reality is harsh and even after hundreds of eye contacts we hear no sound track playing inside our heart or around! But startling things do happen sometimes.. gazing into his eyes, I felt the wind blowing stronger and it was more comforting.. even though I had already stopped the music player of my phone, I felt a soothing sound from within..a different sound! There was an unidentified attraction between us.. even those few seconds appeared like a decade.. the look in his eyes told a thousand words, as if he knew me.. the feeling was no different in me!

I heard the front door open and got back to my senses..Reality! mom and dad were back..

Even then I did not realise what really happened but a sudden feeling forced me to look back..and guess what? I found him looking at me as well..as if he wanted to stop me.. wish I could…

I had no idea what he thought or how he felt, but I wish I could stop that time.. it was not about looks or a fatal attraction, it was something unique, something never felt before..

The last second I looked into his eyes and my heart skipped a beat..the car started to move..and speeded away!!

It’s not about a love story with a sad or happy ending! It is about the feelings.. sometimes we don’t realise what is going on with us.. we do get surprises sometimes..

I see hundreds or thousands of known and unknown people around me everyday but never did I feel such an attachment.. wish I could see him 1 more time.. just to know what he thought,just to know what he felt, just to know if it was the same as me.. I wish I could see him again.. but this is life.. we come across many people in life ..few of them stay with us,many of them leave and very few leave us with a thought.. I don’t know him, I don’t know his name or anything else.. even his image seems blurred now.. but I am left with a thought.. why?? It was not an usual thing.. we really don’t feel this way even when we cross our “crush”..  the “moment” is a past now.. but sometimes we forget even the spectacular happennings of our life.. for me it was one of them and I know I will forget it, may be by tomorrow.. but we do need to keep a “note” of few things we don’t wanna forget!

But....wish I could see him one more time..

P.S.- This is all about "sudden feelings" and may be "Reality"...

Believe "IT"....or not!!

“The road was gloomy…there were no street lights,no vehicles,not even a single house..it seemed to be a never ending road with nothing except huge walls on both the sides.. I was sprinting through the lanes..I couldnot breathe, felt choked,yet I continued running..

Was there something or someone after me?? or was I after something or somone??

The chase continued..

After a while, I could see a tinge of light but I couldnot find the source.. I had not much time! Few more miles I completed and the fuzzy vision was materialising into a clear one.. I could see her

Nothing was after me..nor was I after anything or anyone…

….She screamed for help, But no one took a step forward! The goon was after her, I could see the sharp edged knife in his hand but why was he chasing her?? I was unaware..

All I saw was,the girl crying for help and screaming out of fear..she was tired of running,

Her legs almost gave up,but her heart was brave..she did not stop!

The sight fierced me, the heart beat went faster..I saw the girl,she was beautiful, innocent but appeared tired,weak and terrified..I could see her running but the thug was faster…

The moment she was out of my vista,my heart skipped a beat..she could be dead anytime

My head gave me a severe sting..the pain was unbearable but imagining the girl lying dead encased with blood was ghastly…someone has to save her..I have to save her

I couldnot think of anything else except running…I had to save her! The trail led me to a pitch black road..my heart pumping loud! I had no strategy..I just had to save her..        but how?? I could just continue running in order to catch up with her.. in order to save her..

The roads turned darker..then coverted into lanes, by-lanes but the chase continued..

After a while, I could see a tinge of light but I couldnot find the source.. I had not much time! Few more miles I completed and the fuzzy vision was materialising into a clear one.. I could see her..

But she was not screaming or crying..The goon was nowhere near! She looked mesmerising in her white gown..she changed her clothes?? Though her eyes looked absurd,her appearance was dazzling..she bade me and started leaving! I tried walking but couldnot move…what had happened??”….

….I could hear a music..but it seemed to be a noise to me! I felt drowsy..My eyes were tired as if I was deprived from sleep..the vision was blurred! The noise grew louder.. I opened my eyes..with a lot of twinge! I felt suffocated..I started gagging and it took a lot of time for me to get back my breath!! I found myself on my bed..how could be here?? Wasnot I running down the slender lane?? Was it a DREAM??? No..it can’t be..

The sun was already above..I realised I had been sleeping for long and it was just a dream..a nightmare actually! Somewhere the fact seemed unacceptable for me.. It couldnot have been just a dream! I knew the road, the lanes.. V.T.Road, Lane 13/4..

I shifted my mind and hurried myself to get ready..It was late! It was weekend and my friends must have been waiting… in no time, I was ready but the freshness was missing!

I looked worried..deviating my mind,I rushed out of my house..It took me about 10mins to reach the place, The Shopping Plaza..I could see my friends and their expressions were enough to make me apprehend my mistake…I was late!!

Along with them I started walking towards the entrance but something came to my notice.. though I was never interested in reading newspaper, my eyes caught a vision.. The headline…

      “Girl Killed by a goon..No hands to help” I rushed and picked up the paper.. the address read V.T.Road, Lane 13/4..there was a photo of the girl….

Yes, I recognised her..I tried to save her…It was not just a Dream!

 I felt throttled and weak..I fell on the ground! ….and then darkness swathed me!!

It was not just a DREAM….

P.S.- Sometimes nightmares do come true..believe me!!

...And here I "set off"

Bored with Boredom I am all set to start a new blog! A girl who loves to write but too lazy to make herself work, is finally doing it.. I love writing poems more than anything else..oopz, I love myself more actually ;)..so,May be a small Intro through a poem won't be bad :)

            A small town girl,with dreams that touch the sky

           With hopes,that are big..A Heart filled with emotion

           A small wish..like those Birds, to fly High..

          And eyes,in search of a pearl lost in an unknown Ocean..

         Love to be in my own World, a colorful canvas

         Drawn with the paint brushes of my own imagination

         Not alone though, with the people I really trust..

        Live in a World,which for me,seems to be my own creation..

   

       In search of something,which is rare to find

       But I know, sometimes magic works without magic wand

       And I know, someday that "something" will be mine..

       Here, a li'l bit of love,not the fake one though,Is all I demand.. 

Not a good one though,yet I begin with it..and ofcourse "here,a li'l bit of love,is all I demand" :)

P.S.- I am "trying" my hands in writing..so a little bit of flaws "here" and "there" is acceptable :P ;)