Monday 28 January 2013

Distance Matters..Only when You want it to!


I checked myself in the mirror all over again and looked at the watch. I was dressing up so much for someone for the first time in life and all I wanted was to look good. No matter what the temperature is, a girl can always beat the cold when it comes to dressing up and I am no exception. It was the last day of the year and undoubtedly one of the coldest nights, yet I was wearing my favorite knee-length dress with matching heels on. I wanted to look perfect and special as the night was certainly special to me. It was 6.45 and my patience crossed it’s level, my nervousness was reaching its peak and I was trembling.. not due to the extreme cold 31st night but due to anxiety and impatience. It was “our” first meet after all.
Yes, we are in a long distance relationship and we don’t know from when but it’s been months that we are in love.. truly-madly-deeply. It might sound crazy that how can you fall in love without meeting and knowing a person, but we share a different bond. We have been friends first, then turned to soul-mates and now happily being together in spite of the distance. ..
At around 7, finally I got a call from him and he was there! I was all set to meet him after those hundreds of video chats, long late night talks, 4 months of staying apart and missing each other, yet I was tensed and almost freaked out. I saw him walking towards me and all I could do was smile, blush and look away. Finally the long waited time was here, the distance disappeared and we were standing right next to each other, not virtually, but in reality! After all our chats and unstoppable talks over skype and phone, there was an awkward silence during our first meet. We both were feeling shy, we greeted each other with a hug which was way too awkward and formal… yet, it was the first one and first of everything is special. It took us a few minz to believe the reality and dilute the awkward silence between us and as always I began with my chatter, which he always likes. We felt comfortable being with each other. I was extremely happy to be with him and dint stop blabbering and smiling. Unlike always, he was quiet and shy i guess! I couldn’t stop looking at him, into his eyes.. He was looking handsome no doubt and we complemented each other. I  felt complete with him. His presence was something that enlightened me.. it was our first official meet but it seemed 2 me as if i have known him since forever. All these days i have been planning, dreaming for this day but i could think of nothing after i met him.. all i knew was, my happiness went beyond limits. I had the best ending to a year and also the best beginning of a new one. I didn’t hesitate being with him, it was a new feeling and somewhere I felt, I have been with him this way since forever, it was something known yet fresh and new. He treated me like a princess.. he treats me like one, every single day! I saw the respect, love and care in his eyes, attitude and words. We had the best days of our life but I love the way he keeps telling me, “the best ones are yet to come, just grow old with me”. I had those few days with him where there was no tension to count the time to check the time-difference, I could meet him anytime, I could be with him, not virtually but really and those were the best ones. We have lived our “Forever” in these numbered days..
Now that he’s gone, all I can do is just wait for him, wait to be with him again. The wait might be months or may be almost an year but now I believe, it’s worth waiting at times. People say distance relationships never work as distances always creep in, I myself never believed in one. But until you find that right person of your life, even being together doesn’t help. In these days, I have realized, distance actually never matters.. Love does! It’s all about how you feel and if you have the will, you always find the way. No matter how many miles apart we are, he is always the first guy I talk to after waking up and certainly the last one I talk to before sleeping. Even the time difference couldn’t disrupt us. We of course don’t get to meet every day, celebrate every occasion together, and we do miss “us” being together but we know how to begin and end each day together, and make each day count, make it special. A bond can never turn weak or it never breaks because of the distance, rather it grows stronger with trust. Distances never let people fall apart. Wrong feelings, wrong person and lies do.
To all those who said, it never works.. It does, only if you want it to. Being in a Distance relationship is cute and i believe they have the courage to fight with every obstacle.
To all those who are worried about the distance… Don’t be. At the end of the day, it’s the love that matters, it’s the trust that makes you stronger. So stop worrying and keep loving! J